Tuesday, 10 October 2017

Fragile X

I've had this post drafted for ages because I don't know what to call it but I really want to get it finished so here I am hoping to publish this today!. I've written many posts about having Fragile X and they've all done so well which I'm glad about. I like to know I'm helping others and it's good to know I can relate to others, I don't feel so alone as I know others are in the same boat as me. As it's Fragile X awareness day today I think it's a good time to post it.

Finding A Job.
It hasn't been easy for me to find a job when I left school I went to college and then when that ended I had to sign on and ever since then it's been hard to find a job. I think my first proper job well temp one was at Sainsbury's at Christmas in 2011, then that ended and I was unemployed until I got another Christmas job at M&S in 2015. I applied for a job as a marketing assistant in 2016 the job was dealing with probate etc, I didn't think anything of it until I got invited to an interview so off I went and got the job the same day! then the start date came around in January 2017 and it all went downhill from there. I found it hard, I didn't get any help or support and they didn't understand Fragile X. I didn't really like the people and felt left out because this other girl was there more than me and they bonded.

Fragile X Research.
I took part in Fragile x research in Edinburgh in June for a MRI scan but I didn't have it done because I panicked and felt anxious and claustrophobic. It really upset me and I felt so silly for going all that way with my mum. It bothered me afterwards because I wanted to have it done but I just couldn't. I took part in other research but still felt like I was a let down.

How I Feel Day To Day.
Sometimes I'm quiet and don't say a lot if someone or something bothers me, sometimes it's stupid but I can't help it. I also find it hard to explain what Fragile X is so I try and avoid that but I do try and tell people. I sometimes don't always look at people in the eye but I do occasionally, though I think I'm getting better at it now. I really find it hard to ask for help with things because I feel silly even asking something simple I don't know why I find it hard but I get worried and scared. When the bus doesn't show up it throws me off because then I don't know what to do and I panic I'm going to be late for work etc. I don't like lifts much I try and avoid them at all costs because I hate small spaces I panic and feel anxious. I don't even like using public toilets.

Meeting People.
I find it hard meeting people and striking up conversation because I'm shy and quiet and I find it hard to start talking. I don't like being around drunk people and I'm not keen on alcohol either I feel uncomfortable around drunks.


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Life Update

I haven't done a life update for a little while but I thought I would sit down and write one today about what's going on, job hunting and how I feel.

I'm feeling ok right now but I am a bit down about my job but I guess it's good that I still have a job but it's also not enough hours and it's weekends which sucks :( I'm looking for another job but it's just as hard when you have one, I still don't really know what I want to do.

I have in my mind that I want a job within walking distance and Monday to Friday that's probably impossible! but here's hoping!. I'm doing a lot of job hunting and hoping something comes along soon because I can't work 2 days a week it's so stupid. I wish I got told this before I started or got told I was being kept on. I had to find out for myself and I felt let down by shaw trust (I still do now) I'm not even sure if I'm still getting support from them now?. No one communicates with me and it's so frustrating having to find things out for myself.

Another thing about working weekends is I can't plan ANYTHING on those 2 days because of work I have a date I can't do but I can't have it urghhh I hate working just weekends I don't understand why I can't have days in the week instead. They've now taken on xmas staff but I could've had some of those hours oh well fingers crossed something better comes along.

I'm still volunteering but to be honest it's not the same anymore and I'm getting bored :/ I like the people I work with but it's changed a lot. I don't really buy anything anymore either because people aren't donating anything good. So many people have gone, new ones are there (which is good!) I like meeting new people but it has changed.

I know things aren't all bad right now but I do hope a better job comes along soon.

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Monday, 2 October 2017

Social Media

This is an honest post about social media I hope it doesn't come across as rude or anything I'm just sharing my thoughts. I'm sure I'm not only one who feels the same.

I don't have a lot of followers on social media, but then again what counts as a lot? 25? 50? 75? anyway I took part in one of them twitter follow trains and overnight I gained 300 followers but today it got me thinking did people only follow because they took part?, or do they follow because my blog interested them? I don't know the actual answer but it did get me thinking do people only follow to gain more followers?

These follow trains aren't really a good idea because 9 times out of 10 people don't follow back or they do and then a couple of days later unfollow A-you can't follow everyone and B-not everyone's of interest which is fine but people make a big deal.

There was this one blogger who followed me until I asked her a question about blogging and she blocked me I still don't know why?. If that happens to you I wouldn't worry about it people make no sense and it's one less follower to worry about.

I have started unfollowing a few people because I don't have any interest in them and nor do I read their blog (tell me I'm not the only one!). It might sound mean but it's the truth why follow people who don't share the same interests? I bet none of the people who took part in the follow train have even read my blog and just follow to build their numbers up.

Instagram is similar again I only follow accounts that are of interest but I do get a lot of spam accounts and ones that I have no interest in but again we can't follow everyone. Numbers aren't really that important if you enjoy blogging etc then stop worrying about numbers! Ok I admit I wish I had more followers but I'm not going to let it bug me because blogging is my passion.



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Wednesday, 27 September 2017

Autumn Essentials

Now that it's September that means one thing autumn! I don't really have a favourite season but I do like autumn for cosy days and hot chocolate. It's also the time I get to wear my all time favourite fox dress I got a couple of years ago and it means boot weather too!. Today's post is my essentials for autumn, what are yours? leave a comment below I always reply.

Cosy grey slippers to keep my feet warm these ones are from Primark of course! and only £4.
Perfect for movie days and cosy nights.

Everyone knows I'm a huge Lush fan so it's only right to include one in this post.
This one is an all time favourite the rosejam bubble roon. There's nothing nicer than a relaxing Lush bath.

Gel nails I love getting autumn colours now. I love burnt orange, mustard, dark green and burgundy.
Homemade soup need I say more this one is butternut squash. 

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Tuesday, 5 September 2017

My Favourite Bloggers/YouTubers

Brogan Tate (brogantatexo)
She makes weekly& travel vlogs and the occasional beauty ones I found her channel in 2015 and I've been so hooked ever since!. She's so down to earth, and always so positive and an all round fab YouTuber who I'd love to meet one . https://www.youtube.com/user/brogantatexo/featured

Tamsin Graham
Tamsin is a smaller YouTuber and she's recently started making videos again. I'm super glad as I enjoyed watching her but when she stopped vlogmas last year I was kind of gutted but it's good to have her back making weekly vlogs. It would be good to meet her one day as she seems so genuine and positive. https://www.youtube.com/user/xtamsin/featured

Grace Victory
Grace talks more about the important subjects that rarely get talked about which is what this society needs. She's all about body positivity and self love and I'm so happy I found her channel and blog. I recently bought her book no filter and read it in about 3 days it was so good. I'd love to meet Grace some day as well it would be great to get advice and just have a chat. https://www.youtube.com/user/UglyFaceOfBeauty/featured


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Sunday, 3 September 2017

4 Simple Ways To Get Organised

I thought I'd share a different post today on ways to get organised as we all accumulate loads of things and 9 times out of 10 nothing has a proper home. So todays post is about 4 simple ways to get organised.
Storage Baskets
Buy some storage baskets or boxes if you prefer which can be used for your make up, skincare, paper work and any other things you want to use them for. My baskets came from Wilko and are pretty reasonably priced as you can see I use my little ones for my skincare and make up, and the bigger ones for stationary/paperwork. You can buy them in whatever size you need as it depends where you're storing them for example under your bed, in your dressing table drawers/on your dressing table/book shelf. Putting things in baskets etc help keep your room/house/flat tidier.


Plan Your Week
Write lists of what you're doing for the week they're a good way to organise yourself so you don't forget anything!. It's also a good idea to know roughly what you're doing and if something else comes up you can fit it in. I love making to do lists for the week or the day.


Cosmetic Drawers
These are really useful for keeping your makeup tidy or stationary if you prefer so it's not all over the place. I bought my drawers and tray from B&M. These are pretty cheap if you're on a budget also there's no point spending loads.


Chalkboard
I'm a crazy cat lady so this cat shaped light up chalkboard is right up my street! it was a present last year and I love it! it's so handy for writing little quotes or little to do lists to keep me motivated and productive.
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Thursday, 24 August 2017

Why I Like Being Single

My last relationship was in 2014/2015 and ever since then I've been single and to be honest I've had no interest in dating or anything. So I thought I'd share why I like being single and if you relate then leave a comment I always reply.

1.You don't have to explain it's your time of the month every time (they don't get it anyway!).

2.More cash for make up, days out, clothes etc.

3.Nights in to watch documentaries, films, TV series etc on Netflix.

4.No make up days FTW!

5.You don't have to share food! haha lol.

6.More time to go out with your friends.

7.Time to hang out with your cat.(yes I'm one of them people! no shame)

8.Extra pamper sessions/self care.

9.You don't have to watch the football/any sport.

10.Enjoy spending time with your friends/family/yourself.

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Friday, 18 August 2017

A Very Long Over Due Life Update

Well hello there I'm back with a long over due life update it really has been a while since I've posted one. I've been putting off writing this post because I was waiting to hear about my time at B&M so now I know I can post this!.

B&M Job
I started back in February and it was meant to end in May but got it got extended till August anyway I have good news! I'm being kept on! yay I'm glad as I do need this job and also I can look for other work too. It has been going well the whole time I've been there and I've made new friends which is good. I think it's helped me with gaining more confidence and also I'm gaining more skills and experience. I had been getting good feedback from the managers which definitely helps make me feel proud and that I'm doing a good job.

Blogging
I think my blog is doing well at the moment my stats are pretty good and I'm enjoying posting content. I have gained more followers on my blog and social media which I'm happy about! I like meeting new people and connecting with others who share the same interests. My blog is still my hobby and I'm happy with that.

Plans
My plans for now are to keep working at B&M and look for other work at the same time and also work on my blog more which I feel like has taken a back seat lately but I hope to be posting content very soon so watch this space!.

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Thursday, 3 August 2017

7 Ways To A Brighter Week

We all need a little lift in life when we feel unmotivated and sluggish but fear not today's post is all about little ways to making your week a little brighter. I hope you're inspired by this and it helps in some ways.

1.Plan your week on Sunday's either in your diary, calendar on your phone or just in a notebook. It's good to plan and have a rough idea of what you're doing that week. Plus you'll feel more motivated knowing what's happening!.

2.Write a to do list with the most important things at the top, then work your way downwards. It's good to have a list of things to do as it'll keep you productive.

3.Buy a notebook and fill it with positive and inspirational quotes.

4.Tidy up your room and organise things tidy room= tidy mind!.

5.Get outside and go for a walk and also open the windows to let in some fresh air.

6.Buy some flowers they are guaranteed to brighten your mood and the room with their bright colours.

7.Find your favourite quote, print it off and buy a frame (big enough) and hang it on the wall.


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Saturday, 29 July 2017

Benefit Make Up Review


This is the first time I've bought more expensive make up because I could never justify spending that much. Now I have a job and I'm earning money I thought I'd give it a try and be brave! haha.

So a few weeks ago I went to Chelmsford and walked around Debenhams looking at benefit make up and also urban decay but I didn't really know what I was looking for and I was kinda too scared too ask, also I feel that I'm going to be judged.

I then went to Boots and plucked up the courage to get some advice from one of the assistants who was called Robyn. While I was there I had a little make over and tutorial of the foundation and concealer, she also used a primer and mascara but I didn't purchase them. I'm quite loyal to the Seventeen mascaras blowout and the back lash and also the Rimmel primer. I've tired others and this one is still the best!.

This foundation is really good, it feels light and doesn't feel heavy at all like some I've tried in the past. It gives good coverage and a little goes a long way. It also doesn't feel like it's slipping of your face when it the weather is hot. I'm so impressed with it and I'm glad I took the plunge and splurged for the first time!. This foundation cost £29.00 and I got shade pure for sure in Ivory. I recommend this foundation if you want to splurge! it's a good product that I'd buy again for sure!.

This concealer is the best one I've ever bought didn't think id say that but it was a lot more than I normally pay!. This comes in a little pot and a little goes along way, it's easy to blend and gives good coverage. This concealer costs £17.50 it's not normally what I'd spend but it is good!. I normally buy the Rimmel wake me up which is £5.49 which is still a favourite. I  recommend this concealer as it does exactly what the pot says! if you're looking for a high-end concealer then I suggest buying this one.

This was free as I'd bought 2 other products and so far it's pretty good!, a little goes a really long way so remember that! It blends well and gives a nice bronze look. This is a liquid bronzer which is good as you know how much to use it goes on well but it does need a lot of blending.This one is a sample sized one but you can get it full sized which is £24.50.

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Thursday, 20 July 2017

Why It's Ok To Have Off Days

We all have those down days where we lose motivation and just don't feel like ourselves whether it's school, college, job or general life issues we sometimes feel overwhelmed with it all.

We need a break to re charge and to feel better and motivated again it's not good to get stressed out over things that probably aren't worth getting stressed over but we all do it!.

So today on my blog I'm sharing why it's ok to have off days and how to pick yourself up again.

1.Don't beat yourself up if you haven't blogged in a few days /or done what's on your to do list it's good to take a break.

2.It's ok to have make up free days.

3.If you feel like staying in bed eating chocolate then do it!.

4.Take a break, go for a walk, listen to music or read a book.

5.Go for a long bubble bath, relax and unwind no phones etc.

6.Go to bed early to get a good nights sleep.

7.Have a pamper session.

8.Go for a walk, get fresh air and just take your time.

9.Listen to music and make a positive playlist.

10.If it helps talk to someone about things no matter how big or small.


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